Determination and Lyrics of the Day

So I've decided that I'm not going to quit writing. I can't. I forgot that I've got something to prove here. I need to prove to all of those people who used to tell me I was over imaginative, that I'd never be anything, that I can do this. I don't need their small town life, barefoot and raising babies. (I'd rather do it here in the city *wink*) I wanted to quit because I got scared. But that's what I've done my whole life. Quit, ran when things got scary. Bad stuff is going to happen to Aine. She's going to hurt. Because if she didn't, if nothing bad happened, it would be a boring story and not realistic in the slightest. Real life isn't all happy bunnies. I should know that. No one ever goes through life and never gets hurt. We are all scarred. We have all hurt in one way or another.

This song is inspiring me this morning. I can kind of "read" myself through it. But only a little. I think the powerful music these lyrics are set to is the biggest influence here.

"Away from me" Evanescence

I hold my breath as this life starts to take its toll

I hide behind a smile as this perfect plan unfolds

But oh, God, I feel I've been lied to

Lost all faith in the things I have achieved

And I



[CHORUS:]

I've woken now to find myself

In the shadows of all I have created

I'm longing to be lost in you

(away from this place I have made)

Won't you take me away from me



Crawling through this world as disease flows through my veins

I look into myself, but my own heart has been changed

I can't go on like this

I loathe all I've become



[Chorus]

I've woken now to find myself

In the shadows of all I have created

I'm longing to be lost in you

(Away from this place I have made)

Won't you take me away from me



Lost in a dying world I reach for something more

I have grown so weary of this lie I live



[Chorus]

I've woken now to find myself

In the shadows of all I have created

I'm longing to be lost in you



I...

I've woken now to find myself

I'm lost in the shadows of my own

I'm longing to be lost in you

Away from me